my hero

I love my mom. Even though sometimes im a brat to her, i still love her. i dont know how my mom puts up with me. sometimes im so mean to her, but she is always patient with me. when all i want to do is sit in my room and watch Prison Break, she tries to understand. she gives me money when i want to go see the same movie over and over (well she used to untill dad told her to cut me off, but thats a different story).

sometimes i dont tell her how much i appreciate her. but im not good at sharing my feelings out loud, so im just going to put my feelings in cyberspace...i love my mom so much, i should probably tell her this, and i do sometimes, but not nearly enough. she sacrifices so much for me and i hardly ever deserve all she does for me. she keeps me motivated, she drives me everywhere. she doesnt ground me. she is nice to my friends. she even buys me plane tickets to go see my sisters when all i do is complain about how she never gives me anything, but even though i might not realize it nearly enough, my mother is the most amazing person ever and i love her so MUCH!!

reading/writing

i read all the time. usually im reading Twilight, or something having to do with twilight or vampires. but sometimes when i want a little something different i read The Da Vinci Code or Angels and Demons. but thats all. i dont like change, i dont like wasting my time reading something i might not like when i could just read something i know i will like.



when im depressed i read Kyrias blog. when i miss my sisters, or when i need a laugh, i read Elyses blog. they are the reason i blog. because if someone writing down what they think/feel can impact me so much, maybe i can impact someone else. but my sisters are the only ones that know about my blog, so they are the ones that might be impacted by something i write. but im not going to hold out hope for this blog to change lives. this is just a place for me to vent and complain and say anything! so sorry if you dont enjoy it, dont read it if you dont care about stupid things that i have to say, cause thats all this is going to be, me writing about nothing!

Random things about ME!

Where is your cell phone? right next to me
Your hair? on top of my head
Your father? thinks he is cooler than he is, OLD
Your favorite thing? iphone
Your dream last night? something with Taylor, Bailey,Reagan, Brad, Austin, and Allie
Your favorite drink? agua
Your dream goal? 'see ya there'
The room you are in? bedroom
Your fear? failure
Where do you want to be in 6 years? twenty, twirpy, and twig like
Muffins? poppyseed
One of wish list items? private jet
Where did you grow up? ATX
The last thing you did? camp kick off...
What you are wearing? G-mans batman shirt, some boxers, boots
Your t.v.? gilmore girls
Your pets? millie
Your computer? moms old compaq
Your life? boring
Your mood? eh
Missing someone? YESS
Your car? n/a :((
Favorite store? target
Your favorite color? orange
The last time you laughed? sunday school
Last time you cried? last night
Food? limes and salt
Where would you rather be right now? UTAH!

people

i need someone who:



understands why i read Twilight every week and dosent make fun of me for it.



dosent care when i talk about nothing just so i can hear myself talk.



holds me when i cry.



gets me out of school to go shopping.



buys me random things just because.



has the strange ability to get me free food when they wear shorts and heels.



takes me to 4th meal.



tells me what to wear.



eats junk food with me all night.



listens.



appreciates me.



dosent judge me.



will let me tell them about my stupid high school drama.



understands when i have a crush on an eight grader.



loves me unconditionally, even when i may ask crazy things of them, like to break up with their boyfriend because i dont feel loved,



the thing is that i know excatly where i can find someone like this, two someones in fact, but unfortunately they are living their lives. so i will continue to live mine and try to make the most of it. because everyone has trials. and if this is as hard as my life is right now...well i think i can manage. and for the time being i will turn to my imaginary friends, Edward and Bella, because no matter where i am, they will always be there too. maybe thats why i read twilight, because twilight dosent have to go to college or grow up, it will always be right on my iphone, always a touch away!

Frustrations with 24!

i love shows that pull at my every emotion. this is why 24 is my favorite show. because in one 45 minute episode, it has the power to make me laugh, cry, yell, want to curse, and it makes me want to throw my phone at the TV. i experienced all of these emotions tonight in a thrilling episode of 24. but since me dad threatens to ban the show if i yell at the TV i will make do with blogging about it. **if you plan on watching this season of 24 i suggest STOPPING right now because this may ruin it for you to read**

here are my frustrations

• when Jack says the famous lines "i give you my word" it means that he is not going to LIE to you. His word means everything to him and he would never do anything to make someone not trust him. so get with the program you newbies on the show and TRUST Jack..it will make your job a lot easier and less people will die.


• i hate people on power trips. just because you have the power to do something, doesn't mean you should use that power to make ridiculous calls. because lets face it madam president, and Larry moss, YOU ARE WRONG! listen to Jack!


• a lot of people on the show have a problem with jack interrogating people. call me heartless, but i have absolutely no problem with it. it gets the job done and it saves lives. obviously playing the "immunity" card doesn't work so stop trying and let jack get the job done.

the silent beep before a commercial on 24 is one of the worst silences EVER. this silence means that someone good has died. this happened tonight when Bill Buchanan gave his life to save the president. this selfless act was supposed to be preformed by jack but if jack died the show would be pointless because there would be no one to save the world so everyone would die cause lets face it no one can stop terrorists lke jack bauer. and that is why i love AND hate 24!

Sunday mornings

This is how Sunday Mornings go. I lay in my bed till 11:30 and my parents think I'm sleeping. But usually I'm not. Like right now I'm creating a blog. But five minutes ago i was silently crying my eyes out. DO they know this? nope. They think that i am sleeping and having happy dreams. as i lay here crying i hear the happy sounds of half of my family. yes only half of them are in the house. And lets be real, they are not the half i want to be in the house. i mean i love them and all but at this moment i have no desire to be in cedar park texas. there is only one place i want to be and it is somewhere i NEVER thought i would want to live but if my parents walked in right now and said pack everything we're moving to utah...i would jump for joy and start crying happy tears because that is where i want to be. in utah where the people i care about the most have escaped to with half of my heart.

most people cant live without half of their heart, but i've had lots of practice and over the past eight months, i have gotten used to it.

Back to sunday mornings, dad just walked in to remind me that instead of having an hour and a half to get ready for church, due to daylight savings, i now have thirty minutes. GREAT just what i need to top off my morning.

so now i get dressed in YOUR clothes, and do my make-up how YOU taught me and put on my happy face. and go to church and talk about the dance last night, and no one suspects that i dont want to be there because i put on a really good show!